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Saturday, February 09, 2002
2/9/2002 01:34:04 AM
I had a very nice entry which include social bloggage and personal reflection. And then IE crashed. Grrrr. I'll re-write it later, so forgive my impertinence and laziness.
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When I decided I was going to feature a female, for once, on my blog, I was origianlly going to have a kick-ass figure. Someone like Lina Inverse, or Mint from Threads of Fate. And I'll eventually make such a layout. But I realized that whom I really wanted to feature Kotori.

[As a side note, I'm fascinated by this picture, which was taken from With a Slash. I'm sure there are a whole bunch of symbollic World Desctruction reasons behind it, but had I seen it out of context, I'd think it was about menstruation.]

Kotori is heavily under-appreciated in X. Because she [initially] presents an obstacle to numerous yaoi couples, the fans tend to forget her existance. At least they don't usually imagine Killing Her/ Mangling Her into UberBitchGirl/ Put her into Ludicrous pairings, because Clamp already did a good job of getting her out of storyline. Well, that, and the readers are tired of watching her die in Many Painful Ways.

She's also disliked for her frailty. Of out of the entire X cast, she is definitely the weakest. Physically, she's pathetic-- her heart won't allow her 'strenous' activities like excessive running, or emotional shocks like seeing disembodied heads. Nor is her psychological state strong enough to deal with the trauma she received.

[My personal theory is that the reason for Kotori's physical weaknesses is because she's a Dream Seer. Consider Hinoto, who is blind, deaf, and can't walk. Then think of Kakyou, who's an even stronger Dream Seer, but who spends his days unconscious in a hospital bed. It seems as though the stronger a Dream Seer you are, the worse your physical body is. And Kotori is unlucky in that her meager skills as a Dream Seer aren't really worth the problems it gives her.]

Yet another fault of hers is that she's emotionally dependent. A cross look from 'Kamui-chan' makes her faints, and everytime something reminds her of headless bodies, she needs her brother to bring out of the shock.

Despite it all, Kotori is a favorite of mine. She was far, far, too weak for the world and position she was born. Under normal circumstances she might have led an undisturbed life, with a husband and a couple of kids born with the help of a ceasarin [sp?]. Instead, she was stuck between the two Kamuis in the battle to determine the world's fate. All things considered, she did well. She's even one of the few characters, who despite having been a Victm of Destiny, who believes that the future can be changed. She embodies the 'gambaru' spirit, even if she didn't have much to 'gambaru' with.

It's important to be strong. But it's okay to have a fragile self, too.

Strength comes from overcoming weakness.

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