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somedays good, somedays bad
Wednesday, December 05, 2001
Well. Weeeeee~~! Much as a I hated-- I mean, appreciate tripod, I will no longer stay here. Go find me over at http://nyahnyah.net/blog/index.html. Hope to see you there~~.
I love cats dearly, but when I have nightmares it usually involves them either attacking me, me hurting them, or a combination of those two factors.
The paper is about yaoi, and theories as to why Japanese women read/write/enjoy it. And you're right. It should have been something like, nyahqnyah.net. Oh well. 'Tis too late. Speaking of my domain, I'm going to have to throw a mean temper tantrum pretty soon, because it will not work with blogger.
Tuesday, December 04, 2001
At any rate, at some point today I will be moving my beautiful wonderful blog at some point to nyahnyah.net/blog/blog.html. Or to some such similar place.
Monday, December 03, 2001
*paper looks back innocently* Forget it. You obviously don't feel like being written today. Maybe after I've done some research on rape fantasies and sado-masochism you'll be more cooperative?
I can't stand that thought. My parents have done so much for me and my siblings. My father hates his job with a passion and could have retired decades ago to be an academic 'bum.' But he's kept at it, and will go right to the very bitter end, to support us. It breaks my heart to see them; the pressure from work is making my father age faster, and the [lack of] social enviroment is severly depressing my mother. Over the summer I realized that both my parents came from rather miserable pasts. I can't go into specifics [it's not my life and therefore not my right to tell it], but they came a long way. A lot of what they've done has been for themselves, yes, but at the same time it was to ensure that me and my siblings wouldn't have to go through the same problems. They want us to have the opportunities that self-confidence and finances denied them. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and tell them not to have us. To not have any kids and enjoy life as they could if they weren't burdened with four children demanding food, toys, housing, love, time, and education. That way, they could live out as many dreams as they wanted to. My mom could open up a restaurant, have her gardens, and raise animals. Dad could be an archeologist/ writer/ astronomer /historian/artist. But that was their decision. Four kids. I can't be the person they wanted me to be, but I want to be someone they can be proud of. So that their efforts and sacrifices will have been worth it. Because it's the utter least I can do.
Sunday, December 02, 2001
Luckily, I don't have to go that far. All I have to do is wake up at 7am on a Monday morning. Painful, but do-able. And definite worth it.
One: despite being a computer junkie with tons of technological experience, I have never used a fax machine before tonight. Luckily, one of the Knapp attendants was actually *nice* [I used to work for them, I can say whatever I want to about the people there] and showed me how to use it. Second: While sending off the fax, someone tapped me on the shoulder. I turn to look, and it's a very handsome girl smiling and waving at me as she walks away. I apparently am supposed to know her [judging from the way she interacted with me], but I haven't a frickin' clue who she is. Pity. Now I go read an article on yaoi and how it "grew out of their despair of ever achieving equal relationships with me in a sexist society and their quest for ideal human relationships."
[Friends being, of course, a very specific set of people. I'm sure you know who you are~.]
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[As a side note, I'm fascinated by this picture, which was taken from With a Slash. I'm sure there are a whole bunch of symbollic World Desctruction reasons behind it, but had I seen it out of context, I'd think it was about menstruation.] Kotori is heavily under-appreciated in X. Because she [initially] presents an obstacle to numerous yaoi couples, the fans tend to forget her existance. At least they don't usually imagine Killing Her/ Mangling Her into UberBitchGirl/ Put her into Ludicrous pairings, because Clamp already did a good job of getting her out of storyline. Well, that, and the readers are tired of watching her die in Many Painful Ways. She's also disliked for her frailty. Of out of the entire X cast, she is definitely the weakest. Physically, she's pathetic-- her heart won't allow her 'strenous' activities like excessive running, or emotional shocks like seeing disembodied heads. Nor is her psychological state strong enough to deal with the trauma she received. [My personal theory is that the reason for Kotori's physical weaknesses is because she's a Dream Seer. Consider Hinoto, who is blind, deaf, and can't walk. Then think of Kakyou, who's an even stronger Dream Seer, but who spends his days unconscious in a hospital bed. It seems as though the stronger a Dream Seer you are, the worse your physical body is. And Kotori is unlucky in that her meager skills as a Dream Seer aren't really worth the problems it gives her.] Yet another fault of hers is that she's emotionally dependent. A cross look from 'Kamui-chan' makes her faints, and everytime something reminds her of headless bodies, she needs her brother to bring out of the shock. Despite it all, Kotori is a favorite of mine. She was far, far, too weak for the world and position she was born. Under normal circumstances she might have led an undisturbed life, with a husband and a couple of kids born with the help of a ceasarin [sp?]. Instead, she was stuck between the two Kamuis in the battle to determine the world's fate. All things considered, she did well. She's even one of the few characters, who despite having been a Victm of Destiny, who believes that the future can be changed. She embodies the 'gambaru' spirit, even if she didn't have much to 'gambaru' with. It's important to be strong. But it's okay to have a fragile self, too. Strength comes from overcoming weakness. blogs of good taste
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